I think I may have misplaced something….
I feel like I’m still young…I’m 33 and at this point in my life, I feel like I’m at the top of my game. I look better than I did even in high school, I have a great, well-paying job (where I am actually crazy about the two guys I work for) I still get hit on….not daily, but often enough to feel like I’m attractive to a certain extent, people are drawn to me….what the fuck is your problem, you ask? I’m dead inside. I don’t feel passion, I don’t feel the drive to create anymore, I haven’t had my breath taken away from me in who knows how long. But is that the trade off? Can it all look so great from the outside and have the inside match at the same time? People see it too…I hear “you look tired” a lot..but I don’t feel tired. I think they are just missing that spark that has burned out. I want my spark back.
